the exhausting abuse of the existentialistic approach to the world

2016 - 2017 - 2018… these past years a renaissance of the existentialistic way of live, thought, decision is obviously emerging - for god’s sake a strong and alert tool against rude and reactionist positions is available, it is even already thought, already lived, experienced, let’s say: life proof. is it really?

integral philosophy, spiral dynamics, entheogen concepts of god - all these achievemnts of the last eighty years are as important for perceiving live, for living in this world as unlimited self-responsibility, god’s death, free choice of oneself’s death are.

listen carefully: you’ll hear neo-existencialists complaining on that stressful high energy level, the  exertion they experience as necessary in following the idea of authentic living, avoiding each indisgenuousness.

what they obviously seem to neglect is that - even in a godless universe - a reality of rhythm is ek-sisting. there is no life without a dualism of awakeness and sleep, nutrition and purification, talking and listening, thinking and meditating…

instead of establishing a rude existentialist dogma of such a hundred percent self desgined life one should accept grateful the effords made by these knights of free thinking, the heroes of awakening selfconscious, inserting it in a more and more complete 360 degree circle unifying all possible states of living, thinking, deciding that together, within the beauty of a rhythm of life.

mental intercourse

at a certain point of my live I started to hang out with these guys creating the classical 20th century philosophy - and some aspects of the 19th, too. husserl, heidegger, arendt are gathering around, kierkegaard, nietzsche, sartre, de beauvoir… i don’t really get what they are specifically talking about, I just feel a good vibration, a kind atmosphere - even at the edge of insanity. anyway these encounters are rather taking place at a party, a sit-in, some kitchen talks, and quite relaxed dance grooves. yes that’s it: I feel them dancing, it is rather feeling than seeing, those buddies, interacting, reflecting, very personally developing their steps and in a delicate way influencing, impregneting the whole world, the universe. they are working as healers, shamanic actors cleaning up all deas ends of religion and logicism - thank you guys for inviting me to your come-together...

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...the most interesting item on these philosopher’s parties - even those kitchen-sit-ins, rather the dancefloor, though: to watch these guys reacting on each other, dancing, play with their aggressions,  disappointments, longings, heurekas…  the smartest part of european philosophy - like soccer’s passes, crosses, goals - was this charming ballett of thoughts, conclusions, paradoxa, made up well spicy with privat affairs. and than, soon after touching this thought, I became part of that interaction… 

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...be aware: the relevant item
philosophers are to spread into the world 

is not thinking - it is the feeling of thought…

sooner or later

….denn früher oder später werden viele - womöglich gar: die meisten? - von uns
auf eine wie auch immer geartete Fundamentalonkologie zurückgeworfen.

reaching the fifth (fragm.186)

the arabic, turkish, syrian, persian music teaches us a whole universe of melodic-protoharmonic perception. take such a simple item as the power, the grandezza, the human heroship of achieving the fifth - as you hear it in the syrian alazeyn, shadjarjan’s / meshkatian’s tchekad and many, many realizations of certain makamat, dastgah…

this blissful drama of climbing the fifth’s degree seems to be an universal truth and returning to european or travelling on into other traditions you will experience a lot of strong melodic fifth degrees in a deeper way… like they emerge in astor piazzolla's oblivion, in german folk songs like hohe tannen weisen die sterne or nun ade, du mein lieb heimatland, in a jazz standard like stompin’ at the savoy’s, in the greek sirtaki from the film adaption alexis zorbas...

this is the inner beauty of an intercultural music perception, rather then that big error of an overall lingua franca: that we are able to listen and learn appreciating essentials of our origin. it’s comparable to the pedagogic effect of travelling, located in the deepest layers of our soul.

the devote attitude towads the fifth degree - any real hero reaches his aim in deep devotion - can also refer to the high importance the fifth has in establishing music systems, tuning concepts…. here the sounding universe departs and these hymns of the arabian sphere are like a longing, demanding prayer, a gift sung into the universe addressed to music cultures which went on with the fifth game…

...oscillation mentale... (fragm.143)

our heads are round so
our thoughts can change direction
francis picabia

well - yes. it’s fine.
we learned, we repeated
this sentence a hundred times.
perhaps we even understood it
up to a certain amount.

still only following half of the truth.
it’s not about finding the next direction
next aim - until the next interlude takes place.

it is the mouvement itself,
what it all is about. that is life.
the mouvement of the turning head.
it’s oscillation: release decision.
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„no!
you don’t have to decide…
god or no god… religion or atheism…

just OSCILLATE.
this is the rhythmic truth of life.
oscillate and a holistic, a cosmic sound will emerge….“

mystery of in- & existance...

God doesn't exist?
no reason for not calling him...

missing sign

later i started to feel that - in a world of signtists -
there was one certain sign missing.
a happy one, powerful ... to the edge.

it might even have been destructive if held in wrong hands.
being to refer to the christian cross, in its original mandala layout.
petrified through its milleniums, set in a quite sensible movement: rotation.

a wheel, not only charging up the spirit and matter, not only carrying me forward.
also representing the structure - the essence - of my inner chakras.
a rotating cross. element of longing health and joy.

why wasn’t it possible for me to find it?
why was it so hard to imagine?
somewhere?

breathe....

why i breathe better in that sphere "created by philosophy"
everything <-> everythought has its space - and may claim it.