on chemotherapy

There was the medicine: the patient died.
And who recovered? No one asked.
So we roamed, with our hellish pills,
Among the valleys and the hills,
Worse than the pestilence itself we were.
I’ve poisoned a thousand: that’s quite clear:
And now from the withered old must hear
How men praise a shameless murderer.

J.W.Goethe Faust I 
1048 - 1055

uninvited

no one can come to the father except through me
years decades centuries perceiving this as an exclusionary phrase
finally one started to think and to reflect . . . to reflect. and to think

do i really want to come to the father?
is this the highest aim for me?

or might it even be
in certain perspective
a regression?

what if in the end i just long for getting relaxedly aware
of an overall breathing presence of father and mother?

could this not be my deepest desire?
as adult comprehensive responsible
men and women - what do you feel?

staying in healthy and happy distance from both our parents
our cosmic ancestors from whom we descend
no matter if we claim a god or any a higher essence

those we were emerging from
mother - matter
father - phantom

an unique enlightend carpenter from palestine may even be right:
no one can come to the father except through me

however
who wants to come to the mother
has other paths to take

licht und frucht

es kann nicht ein gottesgedanke allein 

aus der geistessphäre heraus die ganze schöpfung, 

die welt und die menschheit hervorgebracht haben 

- nein, das nicht. 

aber solange wir vom vatergott sprechen, 

vernachlässigen wir ja eben 

die andere seite der wirklichkeit:

nämlich die weibliche

mutter natur mutter erde mutter stoff

materie… (theilhard de chardin)

schöpfung kann sich nur dort ereignen, wo ein gott 

- sei es nun ein gedanklich existenter oder ein allmächtiger -
auf eine materielle, eine mütterliche essenz fällt.

so wie sich alles, was werden will, 

durch befruchtung erfinden muss,
so setzt auch die schöpfung 

solch eine ur-befruchtung voraus.

ein vatergott 

ist potent, mächtig, allwissend…
aber er ist nicht fruchtbar.
der göttliche gedanke 

fruchtet erst in der materie.

in der personage eines auf die menschenerde
transponierten weltendramas hiesse das: 

der theologische postulierte eros des „es werde“
muss auf das atheistische urgewebe 

des „es ist kein gott“ fallen.

geistesgeschichtlich gehören
atheismus und theologie
zusammen wie - 

adam und eva.

towards a morphogenetic theodicy

if western philosophy were not a discipline that consists of thinking and, to a limited extent, feeling, some philosophers may have discovered the significance of the extended morphogenetic fields created by men and women over centuries, focusing on similar and similar things. some call these fields the astral.

it is the area in which thought can be effective and real in the sense of being effective.* this is the reason for the harsh consistency of religions and doctrinaire ideologies. the perseverance of a religion has often been attributed to rigorous and repressive parenting and other authoritarian techniques. on the contrary, it is obviously more of a motivation for many children and adults (if they are not seriously crazy) to extricate themselves from this system - that is, from this immense worldwide morphogenetic bubble that has existed in centuries and millennia of millions established by people who adapted to certain traditions.

this could be considered a shadow of human history, while in fact every shadow is based on a light. the light of this history lies in this galaxy of ways to establish mental - and, technically, spiritual - objects in this sphere. you may call it astral or morphogenetic field or noosphere.

in the end, an unprecedented bis-symmetric theodicy emerges:
1. god is constantly creating the world and humanity.
2. mankind is constantly creating god and the world.

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*german is one of the languages with strong ethymological connex 

between reality (wirklichkeit), real (wirklich) and being effective (wirksam).

jungle findings / personal wisdom

a sincere philosopher knows that every personal philosophy - sum of perceptions, awarenesses, explanations, evaluations - of a given individual is made up of random building blocks that emerge from innumerable biographical items.

in light of this it is obivous that academic philosophy - scientific system based on a binding canon - aims to dispel this human treasure: immeasurable biotope of infinite intuition.

it is the same spirit from which the last forests are cleared.

door and key

door to philosopher's world architecture:
his / her work & writing

key to that door:
his / her biography

depth of sleep - heat of action

asleep philosophy - the philosophy of the written word.
awake philosophy - the philosophy of the spoken word.
active philosophy - the philosophy of action and interaction.
 

annual rhythms....

christmas: celebrating the knowledge of light's growth
candlemas: celebrating the experience of light's growth
knowledge and experience
theory and practice
one step towards entire living

sim sala bim

the question of the existence of god
belongs to the spiritual, the mental sphere.
here it is relevant, since any thought has its relevance.
by BELIEVING in god he is tranferred into sphere of a global reality.
believe in god means CREATING him. we believe in god means: we create him.

the exhausting abuse of the existentialistic approach to the world

2016 - 2017 - 2018… these past years a renaissance of the existentialistic way of live, thought, decision is obviously emerging - for god’s sake a strong and alert tool against rude and reactionist positions is available, it is even already thought, already lived, experienced, let’s say: life proof. is it really?

integral philosophy, spiral dynamics, entheogen concepts of god - all these achievemnts of the last eighty years are as important for perceiving live, for living in this world as unlimited self-responsibility, god’s death, free choice of oneself’s death are.

listen carefully: you’ll hear neo-existencialists complaining on that stressful high energy level, the  exertion they experience as necessary in following the idea of authentic living, avoiding each indisgenuousness.

what they obviously seem to neglect is that - even in a godless universe - a reality of rhythm is ek-sisting. there is no life without a dualism of awakeness and sleep, nutrition and purification, talking and listening, thinking and meditating…

instead of establishing a rude existentialist dogma of such a hundred percent self desgined life one should accept grateful the effords made by these knights of free thinking, the heroes of awakening selfconscious, inserting it in a more and more complete 360 degree circle unifying all possible states of living, thinking, deciding that together, within the beauty of a rhythm of life.

mental intercourse

at a certain point of my live I started to hang out with these guys creating the classical 20th century philosophy - and some aspects of the 19th, too. husserl, heidegger, arendt are gathering around, kierkegaard, nietzsche, sartre, de beauvoir… i don’t really get what they are specifically talking about, I just feel a good vibration, a kind atmosphere - even at the edge of insanity. anyway these encounters are rather taking place at a party, a sit-in, some kitchen talks, and quite relaxed dance grooves. yes that’s it: I feel them dancing, it is rather feeling than seeing, those buddies, interacting, reflecting, very personally developing their steps and in a delicate way influencing, impregneting the whole world, the universe. they are working as healers, shamanic actors cleaning up all deas ends of religion and logicism - thank you guys for inviting me to your come-together...

* * *

...the most interesting item on these philosopher’s parties - even those kitchen-sit-ins, rather the dancefloor, though: to watch these guys reacting on each other, dancing, play with their aggressions,  disappointments, longings, heurekas…  the smartest part of european philosophy - like soccer’s passes, crosses, goals - was this charming ballett of thoughts, conclusions, paradoxa, made up well spicy with privat affairs. and than, soon after touching this thought, I became part of that interaction… 

 * * *

...be aware: the relevant item
philosophers are to spread into the world 

is not thinking - it is the feeling of thought…

sooner or later

….denn früher oder später werden viele - womöglich gar: die meisten? - von uns
auf eine wie auch immer geartete Fundamentalonkologie zurückgeworfen.

reaching the fifth (fragm.186)

the arabic, turkish, syrian, persian music teaches us a whole universe of melodic-protoharmonic perception. take such a simple item as the power, the grandezza, the human heroship of achieving the fifth - as you hear it in the syrian alazeyn, shadjarjan’s / meshkatian’s tchekad and many, many realizations of certain makamat, dastgah…

this blissful drama of climbing the fifth’s degree seems to be an universal truth and returning to european or travelling on into other traditions you will experience a lot of strong melodic fifth degrees in a deeper way… like they emerge in astor piazzolla's oblivion, in german folk songs like hohe tannen weisen die sterne or nun ade, du mein lieb heimatland, in a jazz standard like stompin’ at the savoy’s, in the greek sirtaki from the film adaption alexis zorbas...

this is the inner beauty of an intercultural music perception, rather then that big error of an overall lingua franca: that we are able to listen and learn appreciating essentials of our origin. it’s comparable to the pedagogic effect of travelling, located in the deepest layers of our soul.

the devote attitude towads the fifth degree - any real hero reaches his aim in deep devotion - can also refer to the high importance the fifth has in establishing music systems, tuning concepts…. here the sounding universe departs and these hymns of the arabian sphere are like a longing, demanding prayer, a gift sung into the universe addressed to music cultures which went on with the fifth game…

...oscillation mentale... (fragm.143)

our heads are round so
our thoughts can change direction
francis picabia

well - yes. it’s fine.
we learned, we repeated
this sentence a hundred times.
perhaps we even understood it
up to a certain amount.

still only following half of the truth.
it’s not about finding the next direction
next aim - until the next interlude takes place.

it is the mouvement itself,
what it all is about. that is life.
the mouvement of the turning head.
it’s oscillation: release decision.
______________

„no!
you don’t have to decide…
god or no god… religion or atheism…

just OSCILLATE.
this is the rhythmic truth of life.
oscillate and a holistic, a cosmic sound will emerge….“

mystery of in- & existance...

God doesn't exist?
no reason for not calling him...

missing sign

later i started to feel that - in a world of signtists -
there was one certain sign missing.
a happy one, powerful ... to the edge.

it might even have been destructive if held in wrong hands.
being to refer to the christian cross, in its original mandala layout.
petrified through its milleniums, set in a quite sensible movement: rotation.

a wheel, not only charging up the spirit and matter, not only carrying me forward.
also representing the structure - the essence - of my inner chakras.
a rotating cross. element of longing health and joy.

why wasn’t it possible for me to find it?
why was it so hard to imagine?
somewhere?

breathe....

why i breathe better in that sphere "created by philosophy"
everything <-> everythought has its space - and may claim it.