missing sign

later i started to feel that - in a world of signtists -
there was one certain sign missing.
a happy one, powerful ... to the edge.

it might even have been destructive if held in wrong hands.
being to refer to the christian cross, in its original mandala layout.
petrified through its milleniums, set in a quite sensible movement: rotation.

a wheel, not only charging up the spirit and matter, not only carrying me forward.
also representing the structure - the essence - of my inner chakras.
a rotating cross. element of longing health and joy.

why wasn’t it possible for me to find it?
why was it so hard to imagine?
somewhere?